Every choice we make impacts our lives from the smallest thing to the larger. We don't Look clearly at all the choices/ directions. We may act or re-act differently than what we truly desire in the heat of the moment which changes things. I know that the things I share here will most likely have no real meaning to you.
It is just something I have to express more for myself.
To use the title of Chers song. If I could turn back time.
I wish I could say I would have changed things. I wish I could have really had my life together. When I was with you I wanted to do things I never cared to do.
With you I felt alive, and yet I never slept so much. Even my dreams of you are calming. Another world. The heart and mind needing to know.
My body use to tell me when you where near. It would vibrate every organ in my body.
The first time it re-acted that way to you it had not completely finished when you asked me to dance for the first time. It hurt bad. It felt like I had been hit. After that it did not get quite that bad or painful. I found myself watching you most of the night.

My Love!


Dreams can come true and you were, my dream.
We did not say much, but I enjoyed our time together.
I had my own little world for awhile and it was wonderful.
The memories of our times together have been cherished.
I do wonder what you were thinking about at times.
What lite those eyes up.
There is not much I would change about the times we had.
I still think and dream of you even though we have went back
to our own lives so many years ago. I miss you so much and at times
I wish we could have found away to have been friends and keep in
touch. I knew I would never see you again, though I always hoped
that one day we would find each other again and at least be friends.
We had different commitments. I needed to get a grip on my life and
get myself together. You could say I was a ship lost at sea. You were
the Island and the safe harbor among the storms in my life. You
could quite the storms ragging inside me, by just being there.
You saved me and did not even know it. Leaving you in Florida was
the hardest thing I have ever had to do to date. It was Florida I was
truly leaving, you just happen to be part of what I was leaving behind
there.
I have written to you many times. No where to send them.
I needed to remove the mask and bring down the walls that I had
surrounded myself with. Sort through everything.
It has taken along time to work out things in my life.
A lot of time in between where I just did nothing.
I was lost and you found me. You where my compass!
You were the light that lite my night.


You were!
The warmth of the sun.
The whisper on the Breeze.
The earth Beneath my feet.
The Star that lite my night.
The air in my every breath.
The Fragrance of Morning.
The vibration in my Soul.
My compass, when I was lost.
You were my home.


You were the only thing real and alive to me.
Nothing else existed but you, when you where there.
At the end of the evening when you were ready to go home
and you asked if I was ready to go home, I always said yes.
Home to me was you! Where ever you were.
You amazed and took my breath away so many times.
I could never tell you while you where awake, or while I was there.
I had to tell you I loved you with a rose while there and over the
phone after I was miles and miles away. Then the only thing left
was the memories and the dreams.


I believe, I must have fallen down the rabbit hole and landed in
a Fairytale, for a short brief time. Maybe someday, we will meet
again and I can ask you a few questions on what you where thinking
and what lite those eyes up at certain times.
Maybe, my soul will vibrate my whole body again letting me know
you are near, so that I may see you again.
Until that time My Love, Know that I Love You!


Signed with love always!
Your Love!

There are times, I wish I could go back to change somethings.
There are times, I would not change.
There are times, I wish I were locked within your arms.
There are times, I dream of our bodies pressed against each other.
There are times, I remember our lips touching each others.
There are times, I want so much to hear your voice.
There are times, I want to gaze deeply into your eyes.
There are times, I just want to reach out to touch your soul.

There are times, I can hear your voice.
There are times, I can see your smile.
There are times, I remember gazing into your eyes.
There are times, I remember watching you walk.
There are times, I remember and can see us dancing.

But most of all.....

There are times, I wish our souls, could again join together and
once again reunite us as one, but that time, My Love, I know, has
not yet come. For there are deeds yet to do. So, until that time,
My Love, know that there are times... I'll be thinking and dreaming
of you!

There are times!
Signed with love always!
Your Love!
Writen for you in 1993!